As much as I want to stay positive, it just isn't working. You know that in the long run, you will only benefit from it but it's so hard. I feel like I'm taking this journey all by myself and my suppose loved ones are just throwing rocks at me. Ok, I may have word it wrong but I sure feel like it.

There is a particular person in my life that I feel like I will never be able to satisfy. Never be proud of me. I tell myself that it shouldn't matter and I can be proud of myself. But that's a lie and I find myself crying at night about it.